If you are a reader of my blog, you are familiar with the tarot-like cards I own that are nature inspired. Every day after I meditate I chose a card and read the meaning according to the author and then attribute my own meaning. Why don’t I choose the card before meditating you may ask? Because it is my incentive to get up early and do my yoga and meditation. I love yoga and meditating—I don’t like getting up early. So choosing the card is my reward for getting my butt out of bed instead of an extra half hour of sleep. I know I will feel better when I do the yoga and meditate, but I work better on a reward system when establishing a new habit.
One Wednesday of this week the card that showed up was:
Just the words “Summer” and “Radiance” were enough to lift my spirits, but then I read the book’s meaning and I started to reflect on the week. Some of the highlights of the card are:
“Release your concerns about what may happen in the future, and focus on appreciating everything you have that is good and right. Allow Father Sun to take away your worries and cares…During this part of your cycle, your capacity to love is greatly amplified…When you are in love with Life, you naturally radiate that love…It starts by allowing the radiant Being you truly are to be expressed in the world.”
The past few weeks I have been worrying about not having enough time to get things done. I was worrying that I had made some bad choices and second guessing myself. What I wasn’t thinking about was all the good and right things in my life. Now I am “righting my ship” and focusing on gratitude and trusting in the Universe that I am on the right path. Life is one big journey and what happens is meant to happen in that time and place. We use the obstacles as teaching moments to help become better problem solvers, to remind ourselves we have choice, and ultimately to appreciate what we have right now.
When I think about the references to love, I had to laugh. I was driving home from the gym Tuesday afternoon and this thought popped into my head, “I love me”. It seemed corny, maybe a bit selfish, but then I decided that was my ego talking. I do love me. I love everything about me from my overly round (but kick-ass strong) body, the way I interact with people and the path I have chosen as a healer. I am healthy, strong, empathetic and optimistic. Some of these things I could not have said a few months or years ago, but I have a come a long way and walked through a lot of fire (sun reference, anyone?) to get here.
Are you going through some crazy crap right now? How are you feeling about yourself in this very moment? I suggest walking outside, tilting your head to Father Sun, and performing these 3 things: let the worry wash away; give thanks for all you have; and tell yourself you love you. Hopefully soon the mere sight or heat of the sun will ignite the series of three above. I think I will head outside now and try it for myself.