If you read last week’s blog, I told you when I was ready I would discuss my recovery from reaching a personal breaking point. In my blog Recovering from a Day from Hell I poured my heart out about crying for no reason and feeling very fragile. We have all been there – pushed to our limits, vulnerable, but unable to really put our finger on the root cause.
So what did I do? I had 4 major issues I was dealing with, so let me recap and relay what I have done in the meantime:
- Grey is the Day: I repainted my grey picture with vibrant, joyful colors. That picture is now hanging prominently on the wall as I enter my bedroom. Every time I walk into that room it puts a smile on my face, a reminder that within just a few hours what seemed liked an all-day grey can be transformed. It became a talisman for overcoming adversity. Talismans are important ways you can reinforce transformational moments. It doesn’t have to be as big as a 16×20 painting–it can be a coin that you carry in your pocket, a bracelet, a stone, anything that when you look at it or touch it reminds you of when you climbed that insurmountable mountain and planted your flag of victory.
- Blood Pressure Woes: I was shocked to find out my blood pressure is borderline high. I have been faithfully using my Lose It! app, cooking up a storm, and drinking a lot of hibiscus tea (from my herbal studies, hibiscus can help to reduce blood pressure). I am happy to report I am down 8 pounds and feel amazing. In the next week or 2 I will get my blood pressure rechecked.
- Back Pain: My back is much better, and I am back at the gym! (pun intended). I am consulting with my chiropractor on what I can and can’t do and relaying it to my trainer who is already crafting new workouts based on his recommendations. I actually find more movement makes my back feel BETTER. I am aiming for 5 days of exercise this week after 4 last week, slowly building everything back up.
- Priorities: I was feeling spread pretty thin. From #2-3 above you can see some of the priorities I made regarding my health. I also decided that school would be a priority and I would forego any other classes until I graduate. I also made budgeting a priority. If at some point I want to transition careers, I need to know the numbers to make it work. It took some time to review last year, but I am ready to take the next step and set specific budgets with the goal of building our savings account.
Really good, right? But did all that “cure” me? It gave me a sense of control of my life, but over what? I took control of my physical self, and I took steps to take control of my mind by putting things in order. What was I missing? 3 is a magic number….
Number 5 on the list would be that I had a conversation with my life coach. She had read my blog and knew something was up. We discussed what was going on, I cried some more, and she pointed out that what I may be missing is the SPIRITUAL side of addressing what was going on. It is body, mind and SPIRIT in balance that bring us harmony. Had I gone deep enough to discover what was really going on?
I knew she was going to say that, I knew she was going to tell me to journey (in the shamanic tradition) and find the wisdom in that journey to help me. Here was the problem. I DIDN’T WANT TO. I wanted her to TELL me what the issue was and FIX IT. Well, it doesn’t work that way. And I knew that too. But it only works when you are ready. In my blithering, raw state there was no way I could journey–I had to wait until I felt strong enough to do it.
That weekend I went on a journey and 2 animals appeared to me – a chameleon and an eagle. After some research and reflection I realized that like the chameleon I was changing my color to whatever I was doing–employee one minute, herbalist the next, student next, business owner next–and that was stressing me out. The eagle was laser focus. I had to bring myself into alignment and get very REAL about what I was doing. Did I want to be a jack of all trades, or did I want to specialize? I am still working out the details.
But you know what? I am not crying anymore. I feel empowered. And I still have work to do. I will have to confront the underlying issue of the original breaking point, and I intend to–when I am ready. This is a critical step we all must endure. Sweeping it under the rug is not an option. These things have a way of reappearing if we don’t get to the root. It won’t be easy, and it likely won’t be pretty, but it is absolutely necessary to fully recover.
Well, I am sure you are thinking, “That’s great, Julie, but I don’t journey, so how I am going to resolve my issue?” There is no simple answer, but remember, 3 is a magic number–you need to be balanced in body, mind and spirit. If you neglect one, resolution will be near impossible. The body needs to be fueled and moved properly, the mind needs periods of rest and rejuvenation, and the spirit needs to be nourished.
But you don’t have to do it alone (see #5 on my list). Reach out to a trusted confidant and tell them what you are going through. Brainstorm about how you can address each of the 3 areas to feel more balanced, and out of the fog a path will appear. You may not have THE answer, but you will have some steps to follow to begin the process of recovery. And every step counts.
I have found that my Reiki clients benefit by talking about their current situation, and after a Reiki treatment are more balanced and peaceful. If you are struggling with an issue, Reiki may help. For more information, click Reiki FAQs.
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I couldn’t resist adding the video – some readers may be too young to remember School House Rock (LOL).